I need anger management. They say anger is a form of depression. That's me. I keep thinking there must be a reason I am so angry. My problem is that at any given moment I feel like I could smash a window. do you know what I mean. Everything is great one minute. Then something little goes wrong and WHAM, the "wrath of lisa" comes along. Everyone get out of the way. Something is making me crazy inside. Right? I'm on antidepressants (for about 5 years) and have continually gained weight (which makes me crazy). I'm obsessed. My husband doesn't get it. I'm pissed off because I'm a cow and more mad because the meds are making me gain weight. .... Now before I go any further let me just tell you... I work out 5 to 6 days per week. Eat about 2000 calories a day AND then walk about 5 miles 3 times a week. OK so it's not just that I'm a lazy slob. But I look like one. The worst part is.... I'm a fitness instructor. Shouldn't I look good? Shouldn't I look like I can control my body? So there .... I guess it must be the weight. I'm stuck in a catch 22. I'm angry at the world! I can't go without the meds though, then I'm even worse. .. So maybe it's not the weight.
God please help me, I'm miserable. And I'm making the people I love miserable too. I don't like myself.
I see people in this forum talk about one little aspect of their life that they feel they need anger mgmt on. Ohhh, but I'm here to tell you it's so much worse than that. True anger mgmt, something that comes from within for no reason. With no warning. WHAM there it is. I need help. Someone please tell me what to do.