Hello
.I was diagnosed with comorbid generalized anxiety disorder and clinical depression. Although I have been treated for both my anxiety and depression seem to persist ecmven though its been 7 weeks since I quit smoking pot and about 2 years since I was bullied.
Althouh both are very tiring and difficult to cope with and treat, in my case, the anxiety has been so challenging lately. I struggle to make and keep friends because I have pervasive thoughts that people are judging me almost everytime I meet someone new or walk by someone. Even though I know cognitively that they aren't I still have those intrusive thoughts, does anyone else have any similar experiences like this? Are you able to deal with them?
In addition I really have a hard time concentrating in school because I am unable to focus because I have add but mostly because I am worrying about something else.
It also ties into relationships and my deep deep lonliness I feel. I always used to rely (unintentionally) on weed to make friends which I thought was effective at the time but I wasnt meet the type of people I wanted to have in my life. Weed also made my anxiety worse and caused many panic attacks. I am still dealing with some anxiety and I find it usually very difficult yo talk to people because I am always afraid ill say the wrong thing. Also when I do begin having a positive relationship i seem to mess up somehow and i think its because my anxiety manifests. I also usually dont have anything to talk about besides my anxiety and other problems and that's seems lot turn people off.
Again, does anyone ever have similar experiences? No matter how hard I try I cant seem to shake these feelings and they keep popping up and it makes me physically very exhausted and seems to burn down all the energy I have. And even though I bike everyday and get exercise through that I still kind of feel the same.
Im just sick of it.