by nullvoid » Sat Feb 08, 2020 1:11 pm
To start off, I would like to say that I had only had 3 or 4 relationships. Many who I only had for a week or two, but there was one that I had been with for about half a year, which was the longest relationship I had but it was also an abusive one. Times she would publicly reticule me, hit me, and sometimes both. Honestly I don't even know why I tried to keep it for that long. During the time that we broke up, I posted some sexist things on facebook, and now my friends and family view me as a sexist pig, and they often dismiss my issue. I do not talk about my issues, and it's been about 2015 since I been closing people out of my personal issues. I bottled this up until it exploded and I ended up hurting someone that was close to me. I want to get better and to be able to talk to people, and would like to love again, but I view people as ingenuous, who would only laugh at my issues and who only want me to suffer. To be honest, I don't even think that I would trust you, but I'm simply putting this up here because I'm desperate right now and I feel like I need some way to get this out here.