I am blocked

Richard@DecisionSkills wrote:

JohnFielding wrote:And I will continue trying my work after a good rest.

So your fears and anxieties are irrational. If you fail to type in a password correctly no one dies, the world does not end, there are no bad consequences.

And you use exercise and a “good rest” as excuses to avoid your irrational fears.

Seek out a good therapist.

I simply think you are wrong in your determinations.
Anyway the only important thing is what I think.
Sure you know this very well.
Try to support.
My decision is taken.

A silly day.

Sporting and resting.
I will try in the few hours left to make the information complete and operative.

The most difficult part is understand not the rational part only. The body has its reasons too.....

Anyway I am beginning to accept this fact.

Another aspect I have to supere - and perhaps Richard knows about this subject - is being irritated, at the defense mood, even agressive.

Is more difficult to establish when you live alone. But certain situations may act as triggers with a great energy.

I remember a documental about violated persons. And the enormous energy and working for supere simple things . Is the relative suffering.

If you are young and in good health you will notice less. But you will pay a high invoice for this effort.

At the present moment I don't have a perfect health. And don't forget the connection with the emotions : my hands sweat, my respiration......

You have the right to have your point of view.
Probably is you feel alike you must do what you are telling to me.
Every person have the right to think and act according to his thoughts.
Best Regards

I continue without doing the two final targets.

If I have to put in a balance I consider the two targets are not difficult ones.
The problem may be the present state and actitude. The way I fight against my anxiety and my lack of energy.

I observ this morning numbness in the left hand, especially the little finger. Pretty persistent.
I have exercised and relaxed. I have documented possible causes of numbness in the left limb or left arm.

But this is not new. Previously to the action I fullfill with physical symptons.

I am not in despair. I am not in a panic attack or similar.

I may feel irritated, even angry, tired and needed to relax...

Of course I am tired of my situation.

I will feel much better if I finish.

JohnFielding wrote:Every person have the right to think and act according to his thoughts.

Of course I am tired of my situation.

Sus pensamientos no parecen ser muy efectivos para resolver la situación. Quizás lo que ayudaría es si cambias lo que piensas.

Thanks Richard.

Relative silly day.
Dedicated to the pleasure.

Working pleasure

One of my difficult parts is finding response to my selfishness.
People are waiting for my works. Works they need and had pay for.
I need to give an answer .

I want to know the mechanism is any. Anyway I have to advance.

While I am writing this I am phrasing and investigating the pleasure and the duty.

Maybe you're a perfectionist? If that's the case, your clients will be happy and won't ever know how much trouble it was to you.

Candid wrote:Maybe you're a perfectionist? If that's the case, your clients will be happy and won't ever know how much trouble it was to you.

I think not.

It's true that sometimes I feel like that, but that is not the point for me.

Low tolerance to frustration.

Low flexibility solving problems.

The above problems seems to drive to perfectionism.

I wish to finish and that's all.

My attitude is simply stupid. Is not completely rational.

I am getting nervous because I must finish.

I am wondering about the clients response and interactions.

As the theme of pleasure.

I am simply traumatized.

But my trauma includes :

Selfish
anger
insolidarity

selfishness, anger, abulia, loss of pleasure.

And aggresivity

THE time is closing over my neck.

I cannot wait anymore.

I begin because I want and it is my pleasure.
I create serenity
My serenity is entirely mine.

I am ready