Hi toni,
Welcome to the Forum, yes this is the right room to post!
I sense that you're a little down and confused at this moment, and you'd like more happiness in your life.
As a starting point I would suggest that you have a look at the
Basic Human Needs and note which ones are met and which ones aren't yet being met in your life.
You might also benefit from the
Depression Learning Path which explains how we feel sad and what we can do to feel more happiness.
Once you've read those I look forward to hearing your response.
Best wishes