Hello all! This is my first post in this forum and I basically have this thing I want to share on some sort of Psychology forum. This post is going to be long, rambly, and not make much sense, but believe me, that's how I feel. To give you a background, I am a 16 year old high school student who absolutely positively LOVES psychology, personalities, and all that sort of stuff and who wants to possibly study it in college. A lot of my life consists of "online" stuff, since tons of my friends are online and I've met great people here. So a lot of my feeling drift from this, keep in mind.
For as long as I can remember, I have a been a sensitive person. I even fall into the categories of the "overally" sensitive person. I am very emotionally intelligent, especially coming from a bunch of people who aren't at all. I have never been to a counselor, psychologist, or anything of the sort but am a very anxious and observant person. I love analyzing my friend's personalities and where they come from and everything. I know I have a lot of empathy, for something like a baby crying SERIOUSLY upsets me or when my friends are upset. Movies make me anxious because the whole variety of emotions and depths and psychological analysis's of situations and ugh. I literally cannot watch movies because they are so mentally draining and almost scary to me in a sense that my brain goes on overdrive.
Here's the thing I'm wondering. I know I'm empathetic, I get that, but sometimes it's so much... more. Here's where I'm going to get really confusing.
I can feel emotions of other people. I know that sounds like empathy, but I don't feel like it's the same...thing. It's like I can ACTUALLY feel them, touch them, understand where they come from and what they mean to the person. There are things my friends have never told me about themselves in their life but I can understand how it affects them by their personalities and what effect it has on them now. I was able to write my friend's psychology paper about her own childhood and what effect it has on her now. Of course I couldn't pull actual situations out of my butt, but I could pull out specific things her parents did to make her the way she is today. Of course, I know a bit about her, but it's like things her parents pushed on her, and told her, that shapes how she is now. I can just vomit these feelings all on the paper without really thinking and knowing how they got them. It's not like I'm sensing, either, it's like I'm feeling. Like almost a physical touch sensation. I've done this with a majority of my friends (and truthfully, I don't know them ridiculously well) and they all same my random analysis's are accurate.
Another thing, moreso when I talk to different people, more specifically people from my school, I absorb every single word they say and after talking to them I can almost piece a picture together about the variety of emotions I feel. It's so strange to describe, it's like I'm reaching into a bag of their mind, pulling out fragments and pieces of it, and start to get a bigger picture of it. It's like... I can start to feel their mind as a whole. This especially happens with people who don't think like me, and don't have the same values I do. This sounds odd, I know, but believe me this is best way I can describe how I feel.
Going back to movies, this is also another good example. I feel sad when the character feels sad, I feel happy when the character does, but the range of emotions goes to the level where it...scares me. I start figuring out random emotions and random scenarios and why they're like that and can just feel the tone of the movie.
I also am an ~aspiring artist~ as well and I know a lot about our right brained functioned vs left brained function. A lot of my friends are artists too, and but the way they use their strokes, the way the sketch, and the way they color all correlates to the way their brain thinks, what side of brain they mostly use, and even elements of their personality show who they are. Some of these things would probably take years to research and probably can't even be provable but there are things I just...know is right. I can feel it. I can see it. I don't know how in the world to describe it, but I know it.
This has been an extremely rambly post. But basically, I've been learning about Psi in my psychology class. I don't know, sometimes I feel like these feelings could fall into that? I know this sounds silly, but truthfully I'd really love a clarification or just random two cents. This love for psychology has stemmed out of these feelings, and I truly do love it. I have gotten more sensitive as time goes on and keep doing but truly I just want to see. Thanks for reading, haha.