the curse of the witch doll

I seem to remember you're interested in natural remedies. Gentle yoga is the way I get kinks out of my spine.

i am sensitive to cold. my back always hurt if i dont care about on cold days. but when i was at hospital they put me on a cold room . and also did not care too much bcs my other problems. now i am being more careful. its muscular pain from the cold. but it only hurts after i sleep and inactive . i dont like yoga but ill do some easy back exercises

my father is taking me out for walks. once or twice 10-15min
and i am doing nothing but being obey better than a dog .
when they want to spook me they do it. when they want something else they do it. i gave up my own body and mind

i was weak already and i have became weaker.. but i will try to keep it strong

im not in control of my subconscious . that i cannot change

laureat wrote:im not in control of my subconscious . that i cannot change

And? No one is in control of the subconscious.

laureat wrote:im not in control of my subconscious . that i cannot change

Your subconscious acts in tandem with your conscious mind, each affecting the other. Your conscious mind (thinking) can be trained, and the subconscious will follow—but it does take work.

Thinking sad, worried and frightened thoughts all day long does you no good at all, obviously.

I wonder whether you have any absorbing hobby or interest you enjoy and that would take your mind off your troubles? If not, affirmations are the only way, and they definitely take work/self-discipline.

The kinds of things you're telling us here are not helpful. Assuming they're representative of what you're thinking all day every day, they'll keep you stuck and unhappy.

Time to turn the ship around, Captain!

OK. im trying to be "working and playing" state of the mind thats all i understand as positive activity. my walks and home-bike i try to consider as work and play. and my family, my daughter

im somehow tricked to keep it distant meters away from my family members.

laureat wrote:im somehow tricked to keep it distant meters away from my family members.

Hogwash. Go touch a family member right now. You are not tricked. Nothing is stopping you. If you can log onto a forum and type a message, you can walk over and give a family member a hug.

yes. but i have been trolled on a strange language. and i feel uncomfortable around my father. i can go and i did it. but few mins and my mind just keeps it on a flight mode .

i feel a little more comfortable writing these coments on the forum . but i still am not comfortable with other things like i used to play chess, watch movies, can hardly do those .

i remember a quote. whatever you search for you going to find , even if its not there..... that i understand but it was really obvious that i was frustrated and spooked around . that was very obvious . i cannot pretend it did not happen . but i am simply hoping its over and they wont do it anymore.... about the ship. i cannot turn it back if others keep on attacking me . but if they dont , i will try to turn it back. you deserve to thank you guys for your time

laureat wrote: i can go and i did it. but...

No "but"...you did it. Nothing stopped you. No trick. Nothing hard. You walked over, you did it. Simple. Easy.

all my hopes to ever work something have gone. when i initiated to do something they trolled me by giving me a better version person and knock my hopes for that. i dont believe i can ever work something and do it good. and shield myself from trolls on strange ways.