I used to have a very good relationship with my father when young. In fact, I am his favourite child of the three. But as I grow older, I get to see sides of him which I have not seen before. Maybe he has changed, I don't know. But he becomes more and more irresponsible. Not motivated to work, borrowing money from my mother who is just a housewife, etc. I don't think this is how a man should be behaving. He should be protecting and providing for his wife and children. So, the impression I got of my father got worse.
As for my boyfriend, he is a sweet thing. And when I am not angry, we are really loving. Initially, our relationship was really good. I was patient and never throw temper. But I don't know why. Recently, I seem to be impatient very easily. Our phone calls would end up unhappy coz I don't like something he says, etc. I recognise the signs. Wanting things my way, demanding that he do things the way I do. I don't understand why. I was not like this. He has always been very sweet and understanding and I don't like hurting him like this. But, I don't understand why I would get hot flushes over certain things he said and then I would start lashing at him.
I wish to improve on my relationships with my father and my boyfriend. My father is not young anymore, and I do not want to continue this stained relationship anymore. I hope that things can improve. As for my boyfriend, he has been really patient with me. But, there is a limit to his patience. And I really do not wish to hurt him anymore. I dislike my anger and hate it that I allowed it to control me.
Is what I am experiencing normal? I will try the techniques taught in the brochure. But do you think I need help? Counselling? Can you advise please?