Praying for the BEST

**Posts:** 3 · by **tweetygoodie** » Mon May 27, 2013 6:15 am

Hi all, I am Tweety, newbie here. I have come to know this forum through friend and I hope I could be enlightened on my dilemma and miserable condition.

I am a single mom to a 2 1/2 year old son. My husband left me during my pregnancy to another woman. My son was born with a heart disease. Raising him all alone has put me into terrible despair and sadness every day since he was born. No single cent and help was given from my husband and his family at all. I don't have any family members in Malaysia. End of 2012, when my husband found out my son is slowly recovering from his heart disease and seeing my son an adorable active kid now, he started to threat me and play harsh on conversations that he wants my son back to his family. My husband refused to sign a divorce until today because he wants to make sure I don't get any single cent from him. He told me he didn't want my son but he wants to fight for it now because my son is the only grandson in his family and his mother wants my son. He threatened me with calls, disturbed me with harsh words and he is sure I am not able to fight against him because he is financially strong and he has a big family background.

I had back bone dislocated during the delivery of my son until now I am not recovered.Due to the hectic life and struggling living, I couldn't spend any penny for myself but I could only feed my son. And just recently, I have been diagnosed with a blood vessel blockage in brain due to a car accident in 2012. I am lucky to be employed by an old mate to work in his company as a admin clerk.

Dealing with health problems and I have been feeling depressed lately. Once in a while, it mixed in suicidal thought. I know I need someone to advise me, I went to see a psychiatrist before, all he told me was just : "you need to deal with your problems yourself, no one can help you, and you need to take medicine". Guess that's not the best for me at the stage where I need a listening ear and suggestive advice.

I feel I am all alone to face all these and I have bad dreams every night seeing my husband taking my son away and I am not able to continue taking care my son.

If my husband is willingly take care my son and protect him truthfully, I knew my son would have better future. But, I cannot hand my son to such an irresponsible man and ruin my son's happiness in the future.

I am in deep dilemma and feel extremely miserable now.

I would appreciate your valuable sharing and comments and suggestions on this. Having no family members, I am all alone to suffer the pain and feeling pathetic in heart.

thank you
tweey

**Posts:** 10113 · by **JuliusFawcett** » Mon May 27, 2013 10:02 am

Hi tweetygoodie,

Thanks for your story,

I can't tell you that I know exactly what you are going through, we are all unique and different and we all have different experiences. I can tell you that you deserve happiness just because you exist and that first believing in that fact will help you find more happiness inside of you.

I was once depressed and suicidal. I tried to drown myself in the ocean twice in 1995. I was so down I did not think I could find a way out of it. I now live a life of consistent happiness. It can be done and it takes a willingness to change the way that you think and a willingness to love yourself more.

You are wonderful, You are capable, you are strong, you are beautiful and you have something special and unique to offer the world. When you learn to love yourself more, respect yourself more, appreciate yourself more, cherish yourself more you will find an ever increasingly strong connection with your inner wisdom. You are able to trust this inner guidance in this challenging time. Your inner wisdom loves you.

The past is over, it is a story that you can stop beating yourself up with, just let the old story go and it will fade away. The future is a very powerful place, it is the birthplace of all creation, the field of all possibilities. If you can imagine a beautiful future, that does no harm to yourself or anyone else, you can live that future. Creating that beautiful future starts in this moment with your current loving thought.

Let go of negative thought patterns. Let go of anger, jealousy, blame, resentment, fear, guilt, tension. Just notice those thoughts and let them go, then happiness will be more able to bloom in your life.

Forgiveness is the key to all of this. Forgive yourself for the harm that you have caused, forgive everyone else for the harm that they have caused you. Forgiveness will set you free.

Open yourself up to receiving all the good and abundance the world has to offer you. You deserve joy, love, harmony, peace. We all do, it is our birthright. Live joy, breathe joy, choose joy. I know that you can do it. I believe in you!

**Posts:** 8 · by **HealedD** » Mon May 27, 2013 1:19 pm

Couldn't have said it better Julius, we are here for you Tweety if you need a helping hand, we've all been there and have come through on the other side, chip away day by day.

**Posts:** 10113 · by **JuliusFawcett** » Mon May 27, 2013 2:37 pm

Thanks for your support HealedD

**Posts:** 3 · by **tweetygoodie** » Wed May 29, 2013 5:11 am

Thank you for your support and well comforting advice Julius. Your experience in the past was indeed inspiring and it made me stronger after reading it. There are always many other people out there who suffer the same or worse problems. you got it through and you are now a happy person living happily. I should always take your sharing as a reminder to myself that I can do better and life will be better one day.

I am now always praying for the best to come and continue to work for happiness. It is rather upsetting that family is not here to listen to me, support me or understanding my situation. Having the continuous harsh treatment from my husband has really drained me and disappointed me in the belief of being strong alone.

I have to tell myself there is always a new hope for me to expect and a better journey for me and my son. I feel very sorry to him that if I can't get well or take care of myself, I would have no capability to raise him well. I always hope I can work for a few more jobs so that I Can provide him a better life, unfortunately, physically I am not able to. I have to admit I need support and care while struggling hard to provide love for my poor little boy. Thinking of him while at work would put me to tears on face and in heart. I hope to be given good strengths to continue striving for him and myself.

Dear HealedD, thank you so much for your support too. Good to see your reply with such wonderful support and I will continue to work hard. Let's hope for a better and wonderful tomorrow.

thank you again
tweety

**Posts:** 10113 · by **JuliusFawcett** » Wed May 29, 2013 5:51 am

Thanks for your post tweetygoodie,

Look after yourself, get a balance between work, rest and play.

"Worry does not make tomorrow happier, it only takes strength out of today" that was said by a lady who got through the holocaust Corrie ten Boom (I think)

You are capable, you are powerful, you are strong, people care-be open to the help they can give you, you are loved, the world is changing for the better fast, hug your son and tell him that you love him often, remind yourself that you are trying your best, we all are.I believe in you. I know that you can do it,

Peace, love and harmony to you and your son.

**Posts:** 3 · by **tweetygoodie** » Wed May 29, 2013 7:25 am

Thank you Julius..! This is heartwarming. Many attempts had been made to make my family understand how much I need them, many ways had been tried to make life better but in vain, many times of tearful decisions to make for my son's sake, many sleepless nights being haunted by the threat and harsh from my husband...all these have really drained me and I was losing courage in things I do these 2 years.

After posting my words from heart and get a feedback on this wonderful support and advice, I feel the world could be more wonderful and beautiful again.

Thank you...

**Posts:** 10113 · by **JuliusFawcett** » Wed May 29, 2013 7:45 am

It's my pleasure

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