wtf. i'm a freak..
but, i feel i am seriously overweight.
no matter if i see people a lot larger than me.. i still feel fat.
if i see skinnier people, i'm obsessed to be like them.
i'll secretively try and see what their daily routine is, and what they'd eat, and what excersises they do.
i'm only 15, yet i'd SO wanna be able to fit into 5 year old clothes..
i can already fit into most 9-10 year old clothes.. but i want to be skinny.
i'd sit and cry and try and pull the fat off my stomach, and it disgusts me.
Sometimes i just don't eat, because i don't feel hungry.
OH ALSO! i'm a vegetarian, but since drinking, i seem to eat things like chicken when i'm very drunk, so yeaahh :/ lmfao.
Also, i do tend to go on some KITCHEN CUPBOARD RAID. where i'll eat pretty much anything in sight. although i'm not greedy, so i can't eat that much..
Anyways, don't let that fool you into thinking i'm bulimic, because i dont throw up my food.
i went through a fase of no eating, though whatever i did eat, i'd throw it back up..
But yeah, help? :/
i dunno what to do tbh. and although everyone on here will tell me to not change the way i am, and to not get an eating disorder {though, it's a disorder, i can't make myself have one} and to be healthy, i still just want other's views t