In order to be happy, I need to stop caring what others think of me, good or bad.
With the good things and compliments, I can take them and I will, but I shouldn’t and won’t try to get them (wanting to get praised is wanting other’s opinions).
With the negative things and insults, I want to be able to dismiss them and not think of them to where it would make me depressed. I want to be able to ignore the insults and go about my day. With girls (I’m a girl too), they’re just jealous for whatever reason. Or some don’t have lives. (I know it’s high school but come on...)
The boys... I don’t know. I know one boy that wants to be girl, hangs out with only girls, acts like a girl and talks like a girl, he picks on lots of girls, including me. Except, I don’t want to tolerate him and I don’t. I just show an attitude with him. He’s the one who always, always starts sh**. It’s annoying. Not other boys of course act like this, so if you know why, please tell.
Some people also just want my attention. Like how some whisper and talk and stare nonstop. They want to see me react, but I don’t. I’ve trained myself over the years to not look at people when walking by. Just keep my eyes in front of me and on where I’m going or going to get, and that’s it. I don’t make any facial expression (or try not to). If I want to talk, I just kind of talk to myself to make sure that I don’t make any significant facial expression.
I want to be able to stay in my own world and block out everyone’s negativity. Any ideas how?
My ideas: building confidence and getting higher self esteem, getting more hobbies and interests, reading or something to make myself forget my surroundings. Somehow...