Hello,
I know it sounds weird but actually my mouth does not listen to me. First of all, English is my second language, and i "hear" correct pronunciation and accent in my head, but my mouth decides to say it wrong.
Then I have a real problem with my native lg. My self-esteem doesn't exist, I don;t feel comfortable with 95% of my so-called friends, and it all makes me feel like no one wants to listen to me, like i'm boring, not interesting. As a result i want to say , whatever it is, as fast as possible so that no one is impatient with me. It's so radical that i sometimes end up with no diction and saying things like /cani-date/ instead of a candidate (in my native). I know what i wanna say and how it's correct, but i'm so stressed up when i open my mouth that i just say everything extremely fast and unclear. And it's like a Catch-22, the more i;m stressed i'll speak badly the worse it becomes; the worse it is, the more i'm stressed. I know it's my psyche but i just can't help it.
I'd appreciate any advice