I am writing in this forum to gain some insight and understanding about my experiences with electricity and emotions. I am a 23 year old male that still lives with his parents. My education will be completed next academic year.
I have been living in sobriety for almost a year in regard to lilitic substances and I have not touched nicotine for almost 6 months. My emotions are still unstable, although they are now much better. Im also finally starting to feel good.
I have recently spent a few weeks in Italy on vacation with my girlfriends, we have a long distance relationship and look foreword to living with each other in the future. Her company makes me feel calm and stable. My mind is perfectly still and my cognition is fully centered.
Upon returning home, a deadline for a project was approaching and the work made me feel manic. I felt great. I was calm and content with myself and my efforts.
I am a person that likes to experience things through the senses: when i drive the car for example, I feel the turns and the forces. When i am calm and relaxed, i feel my body (its pleasures, and sensations). This time however, I experience how my "experience-ness" of my body detached from me with a discharge of electricity in my left eye and my left and right eye experienced a split in attention pulling my mind and vision to the rear wheels of the car. After this, I am feeling strange in my head, as if my eyes are crocked and I am no longer centered in my head/eyes/mind. My feelings of "driving my body" have been transferred onto the car. Instead of feeling the sensations of my body, my mind has decided that the feelings of the car are more pleasurable and interesting.
Things like these are the norm in my life, and have become like this after a stressful time in my life.
I am seriously contemplating whether I should consult a psychologist about my experiences or seek treatment for some kind of strange disease. Are these problems emotional in nature or shall i seek for the cause somewhere else? If anyone has any kind of input on what I am experiencing, or recommendation on what to do, please tell me!!
