Quick summary of my previous post on here. Was with a man who talked sexulally to girls over line possibility that he cheated in person to. Visited lots of hook up sites, u get the gist.
I went to visit him yesterday he told me to leave and it ended, cause i confronetd him about things again he got defensive. I feel so low right now and so lost..im back at parents where its so controlled i dont have a door key (never have had one) parents have always been this way. My mums away and is back tomorrow, im so anxious about this because we clash so much, hard to say but this is why i moved in partly with partner (i nearly took pills) i couldnt take it here anymore felt so depressed, my mum has lot of issues that she vents out on me. So being back here its really making me feel so low im trying to look for work but i cant get my mind into it at all. Just crying so much. My partner (ex) said yesterday i ruined things i need councelling and let my insecurities ruin things for us. I know deep down this sint the case i only saw what i saw. In some way i felt my own person over there with him let myself in and out when i needed, had a job over there i really liked alot, had my independence etc. Feel silly for saying this, but i felt like i belonged there, felt at home. I feel like ive made a mistake. Whats wrong with me.