First Week

My last post was a bit of a long ramble so will keep this one short.

This is my first full week without weed in a very long time. I mentioned before that I actually managed to cut my usage to just every weekend for the last 6 months but did not see much improvement mentally so decided to completely quit.

It's funny how the brain works. Since I'm used to not smoking during the week it was easy Monday-Friday. When Saturday came I was not prepared for how I felt. It was like a switch turned and I was so apathetic to EVERYTHING. It was pretty unbelievable. I had quite a bit planned to do around the house and did none of it. I just lay in bed and played a video game for an hour or so. Ended up having to go out to get food for lunch and dinner because I couldn't even bring myself to cook. Pretty eye opening.

Anyways... although I wish I had been more productive I went through the weekend without smoking which was the goal and I'm happy with it. Hopefully the coming days are better. I woke up depressed this morning but seems to have cleared up ag this point. We will see