Kathleen, thanks a lot for your reply.
I think I do realise that I am safe in the bed/chair, the problem is that sometimes I feel I will loose control, or go crazy. After I opened my eyes after listening the tape first time, I just saw a blue object, it took me couple of secs to realize it is my CD player and the place I am in is my living room. I was already paniced. So, in my mind it's the same quesion : what if I loose contact with the world and I cann't control the situation any more? I know it is absolute stupid, but part of me acts strange. Still, I had a great feeling during that day
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Anyway, your message gave me a lot of confidence, I will try again in the week-end and let you know about my second atempt
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I would be more confident I think if I will do this with a therapist. Unfortunatelly, coming in London regularly is imposible for me. I live far away in North, near Manchester ( in Halifax ), do you know or can anyone help me to find a therapist in our area, BUT a therapist which was trained and applies the same methods as the ones on this site?
Best wishes ,
avia