by bowler32 » Sun Aug 27, 2017 6:35 am
I have been there. I know exactly what you are going through, thinking about suicide. I have attempted myself on 3 different occasions. I know what depression, and I fight it every single day. Trust me, keep fighting. I have had depression for 5 years. I am on the verge of taking it down and destroying it with my passion and love for the world, no matter how cruel and messed up it seems to be. This is when I looked toward God. I know religion isn't the answer for everyone, but it helped me. I would advise you to talk to a therapist. I know it costs money, but there are ones that aren't that expensive. There are institutions out there that might help as well. Suicide is never the answer. There are days where I still think about it. But I don't. There are too many people who care and love about me. I know the same goes for you. It may not seem like it right now, but they do. Do you have a close friend you can talk to? Or any relatives? Life is too short wanting to end it. I fight this urge every single day of life, and I stay strong. There are many things in life to look forward to. I know there are times where life is Hell. It is important to not dwell on the past, but to more focus on the future and hope for the best. The day I started believing in God was the day, I received hope. Hope, that my life will turn around, and it did. I am on my way to taking this depression down with all that I have. I feel that happiness is a choice, not a feeling. I needed someone/something to take control of what I could not. A lot of burden was let go of me that day. I became more myself again. Enjoy the beauty of life and what we have been given. Life is wonderful. Think positively and try to let go of the pain. I had to let God heal my broken heart. I am very happy that He did. If He didn't, I do not know where I would be. Hope this helps, and know if you need more advice I am only one message away.