Thinking of suicide.. Please help me

Postby Kamborghini » Thu Aug 24, 2017 6:13 pm

you don't have to read all this and I'm not looking for pity but i really do not know what to do. For the past 4 months I've wanted to kill myself, not because I'm weak but because no matter what I do, life kicks my ***. Ive been working since i was 16 but have nothing to show for it, I'm in college and planned on surviving the year with whatever was left of my student loans and whatever job i could find, i know it isn't smart but if i didn't have to do it i wouldn't things happened and now i only got about 1500 back from school and the only job i was able to find is a 20 hour a week job paying minimum wage (i applied to at least 50 jobs no joke, i have volunteer experience and previous jobs and everything). Rent is only around 400 every month and i can't even afford that now i don't know how much longer ill have a place to live, I know that if i had money i could invest and make more money on my own but the problem is i literally don't have anything. I haven't eaten in two days and i have no help from anyone, my car just broke down, the only thing that kept me sane was going for drives but now the one simple joy i had in life i don't even have anymore, i really don't know what to do i want to kill myself but I'm scared, and if i don't do it I'm just going to suffer and die slowly, all i wanted to do was study to make money to have the cars i dreamed of but it sank in that ill never be able to achieve that, I'm alone and don't have anyone, someone please what do I do I'm not someone to ask for help but right now i don't know what to do
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Postby George from UK » Thu Aug 24, 2017 8:32 pm

Hi there,

First of all, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And trust me you's is a temporary problem no matter how permanent it seems at the moment.

Secondly i'm sure most people think about killing themselves at one point in their lives, i know i have.
I'm not going to type loads because i just want to get this quick message to you to let you know you're never alone. loads of people here to talk to.

Practical advice... Keep looking for work. Sound's like the car breaking down might actually save you money if you can get to work without it?

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Postby laureat » Sat Aug 26, 2017 12:01 am

You can never imagine an animal bother about a failure of 10 years ago: only a human could bother or even be suicidal about

on suicidal situations a good option would be to simply take off the intelligence from the person, and problem solved, because the human nature is not suicidal,

it is an intelligent idea to run away from problems, but that is still not intelligent enough to understand that life is a privilege
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Postby bowler32 » Sun Aug 27, 2017 6:35 am

I have been there. I know exactly what you are going through, thinking about suicide. I have attempted myself on 3 different occasions. I know what depression, and I fight it every single day. Trust me, keep fighting. I have had depression for 5 years. I am on the verge of taking it down and destroying it with my passion and love for the world, no matter how cruel and messed up it seems to be. This is when I looked toward God. I know religion isn't the answer for everyone, but it helped me. I would advise you to talk to a therapist. I know it costs money, but there are ones that aren't that expensive. There are institutions out there that might help as well. Suicide is never the answer. There are days where I still think about it. But I don't. There are too many people who care and love about me. I know the same goes for you. It may not seem like it right now, but they do. Do you have a close friend you can talk to? Or any relatives? Life is too short wanting to end it. I fight this urge every single day of life, and I stay strong. There are many things in life to look forward to. I know there are times where life is Hell. It is important to not dwell on the past, but to more focus on the future and hope for the best. The day I started believing in God was the day, I received hope. Hope, that my life will turn around, and it did. I am on my way to taking this depression down with all that I have. I feel that happiness is a choice, not a feeling. I needed someone/something to take control of what I could not. A lot of burden was let go of me that day. I became more myself again. Enjoy the beauty of life and what we have been given. Life is wonderful. Think positively and try to let go of the pain. I had to let God heal my broken heart. I am very happy that He did. If He didn't, I do not know where I would be. Hope this helps, and know if you need more advice I am only one message away.
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