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I gave up after hitting 'my bottom' as I turned up with money for a cool ounce of soapbar (hash) and spent most of it on 5/8 of posh pollen as there was nothing else around, and a drought was forecast. I proceeded to smoke it super fast to combat the stress of having no more on the horizon! I remember feeling really down as I sat alone smoking it, and that memory is a great one to keep me away! I was also a bit of an a**hole to those around me.
True, the unavailability helped during the first few days, but I understood that the drug wasn't my friend and so there hasn't been much effort involved since. (It's readily available again now).
I was using for 15 years since I was around 18, averaging 1/2 oz. per week and there has been no motivation to improve my life thanks to the drug. I never had a relationship, and my friends were all slipping away- smokers and non-smokers. I looked back at the time before I smoked, and I was much happier then. This just bolsters my idea that pot is bad! Another great factor is my dreams- I never have nightmares really (or dreams which I interpret as nightmares) but I have dreamt that I'm smoking again, and on waking I have felt 'stoned' - just morning grogginess really, but I felt utter disappointment in myself- followed by elation that it was just a dream!
It's only been a month or so, but I feel much more confident in social situations, my bank balance is healthier and the pain I was starting to get in my chest and lower legs has disappeared. My friendships are slowly getting better (I'm inviting people round for dinner!) and I'm a nicer person all round.
We are all different, so I won't judge those who use the 'reward method' after a period of abstainence. But for me, the fact that I don't see the drug as a positive thing any more is the biggest single factor, and the rest is easy. Now though, I'm chain smoking cigarettes but I'm not inhaling nearly as deeply as if they were spliffs. That's next on the hit list, but one step at a time!
I understand that I'm a total 'hashaholic' and one toke will likely have me back on the stuff full time again, so I'm focusing on that feeling of disappointment I got when waking up from a 'smoking dream' for sure!
Good luck to others out there, and I'll check in again to let you know how it's going. Thanks for a cool thread!