DrRanger34 wrote: at the end of the day I just want to be happy with myself,
Good! Because that's as easy as falling off a log.
Your own wisdom has spoken. You need to love who you are, love what you do, love your own life. Give yourself the adoration you crave from a Significant Other. Look in the mirror and tell yourself: "I love you, DrRanger". Do that every time you pass a mirror.
Think of yourself in the highest terms. There's no one else like you. You're divinely human, not
despite whatever faults you perceive, but because of them.
Love who you are, smile, be joyful. Enjoy being you. Honestly, who would you trade places with? No one! You want to be
you -- you, but doing better.
When you love yourself and your life, you'll be doing better immediately. People will look at you and wonder what your secret is. Don't tell them, not yet. They'll find out when they're ready.
If
you don't like you, why should anyone else? Conversely, as soon as you genuinely love you, no one will be able to resist you. That's a promise.
By the way, Watzisname didn't get five 'likes' for that post. He and I go back a long way, and I gave him the 'like' for what I thought was brilliant advice for
himself. It doesn't apply to you.