Thinking about asking my aunt for a therapist tonight!

She got home early...


And I can't summon the will to ask her.

Hi Antigreen,

If you ask her now, then it's done. If you don't you'll still have to ask her later, and you'll probably be thinking about it until you do.

The sooner you see a therapist the sooner things can start to improve.

If you find it difficult to say it to her, is it easier to write it down?

Yea...
I'm gonna wait for a month or so.
I don't think she would be able to afford it right now, its been costing her alot of money to do all these business trips, and she isn't going to get paid the amount it cost her to do these business trips, till like a month from now, so she would be able to afford it then.
I don't want to worry her about this.
WAIT! Could insurance pay for it maybe?

No...
She would have to pay a deductible none the less, I don't think she could afford it yet.


So, I'm going to ask her a month from now.

You could talk to her about it now, and maybe work out together when would be the best time to start. These things can take time, waiting lists, appointments etc., and it might help to have a bit of time to look around and see what's available. In the meantime, you could find it helpful to talk to your aunt about what's bothering you. If any of my neices or nephews felt this way, I would hope they could confide...

Take care, remember there are others who care about you too.

No, I refuse to talk to her about that stuff.

But she might understand...

It doesn't matter...

It's up to you, but she can't help if you don't let her know.

Is there anything you want to say here?

I don't know who you are, and won't judge you. I do know what it is like to hurt and feel it is too hard to let anyone know. But keeping it all inside can take it's toll, and it can help sometimes to know you have a connection with someone outside of yourself.

I just want to be able to overcome this, and be able to ask her.
But, I feel like I would be asking too much, and I don't want to worry her, I allso feel uncomfortable asking, aside from those 2 reasons.

I think your instincts are good, but there are some questions that prevent you from following those instincts.

Do you trust your aunt?

Has she given you reason to trust her in you life so far?

Are you scared of losing what she gives you already?

Can you answer these questions here?

No, it isn't fear of losing what I already have, but rather, of asking for TOO much.

She gets me whatever I want, and I live so comfortably, but I can't aid her in anyway financially, so I would feel guilty for asking for a therapists as well.

And yes, I trust her.

Your aunt sounds truly wonderful. As we get older, we see things from a broader perspective. I strongly doubt your aunt would consider you needing therapeutic help as "asking too much." After all, you have the rest of your life to repay her.

Perhaps the kindest thing you could do is trust her enough to take care of you as much as you need.

Hope you are doing OK right now.