Any ideas?

**Posts:** 6 · by **spin** » Fri May 28, 2004 9:16 pm

I posted here a few months ago about having anxiety and i recieved some good feedback from a few other members of this board. I was wondering if any one has any ideas of what i could be developing.

To start off, Im 16, i tried smoking marijuana a few times last summer, i had a bad high and i convinced my self that i was dead so i quit. After i quit i felt like a totaly different person. even to this day i still think to my self that i am still dead, i just cant lose the fact. at first i had developed anxiety problems which i have semed to over come for the most. But lately i have been feeling like i dont exsist anymore, i find my self staring at things and day dreaming constantly its hard to stay focused. When im doing activities that im used to doing i feel like im not trying and im just doing it, like typing this post for example. On two occasions so far i have been day dreaming and i get so far off. I will just sit there and talk to my self (in my head) for like 20 minutes, staring into space then i finally realize what the heck am i doing and then i get this feeling as if it were a flashback from when i had been high from smoking again. I feel like i want out right away. When im in school its terrible if the subject doesnt interest me i just cant focus my self and i get bad grades because i dont do my work i just sit and day dream. When i have to read something aloud i feel like i run out of breath and im going to screw up, i cant help it i know its my anxiety but i tell my self everytime that it wont happen and i can overcome it but i cant. Its not like i am shy of the people in my class im usually one of the most obnoxoius. Its like my life is fogged and the fog just wont go away.

Im thinking about going to my doctor again soon, maybe looking into getting a psyciatrist, but for now, does any one have any ideas of what i could be developing. The worst part about it is that ive been trying to figure it out and i find something new every time. Like ADD, Insomnia, Anxiety, or Eye problems.

Thanx alot.
Scott,

**Posts:** 2522 · by **kfedouloff** » Sat May 29, 2004 7:46 am

Hi Scott

Welcome back! Do you know, Scott, you seem pretty normal to me. You've discovered that it's possible to experience yourself on two levels - as if part of you was an observer, just watching what the other part of you is doing, without being involved in it, and you can experience yourself as just one level, when you are fully engaged in what you are doing without analysing it. It's actually very useful to be able to do this, and everyone can, pretty well. It does have similarities (as you have discovered) with being 'high', but your experiences here are probably not connected with your experiments in the past - they are just reminding you of similar feelings that you had then.

Also, daydreaming and being 'unfocused' is a natural experience very much associated with mid to late adolescence. I see nothing unusual in anyone who is attending a class in something which doesn't interest them finding it hard to concentrate! As far as I know, the only way round that one is to know what your own goal is - why are you attending this class at all? Is the grade that you are going to get in that subject important to your later progress in life? If it is, you can grit your teeth and make an effort for the sake of your goal. If you don't have a goal, it will be particularly difficult - but not a sign that there is anything wrong with you!

When you are getting stressed out, have you tried using the 7/11 breathing pattern from the Panic Attacks course? It's a good idea to make a habit of something like that for bringing down emotional arousal. You will know from the PA course that emotional arousal is one of the things that makes it hard to think straight!

All the best

Kathleen

**Posts:** 6 · by **spin** » Sun Jun 13, 2004 11:54 pm

Thanks Kathleen

Im starting to figure ways to mentally help my self through anxiety. I ususally listen to some music to get me in gear and take my mind off the bad things. I've learned alot from this place, I'm glad everyone is here for eachother.

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