Unsure how to explain my psychological situation, as there are many factors to take into consideration (though this is likely the case for anyone) so I feel it'd be best to dish out info as I am asked questions.
As for a categorization of my issues, I was actually torn between posting here or in Anger Management, but seeing as my anger is a product of the bigger issue, this felt more appropriate.
To sum up my dilemma, I am dealing with numerous internal struggles stemming from my observations on the world around me. I've come to the conclusion that we live in a dystopia. Thus, I'm torn between living to simply survive, living to do what I want to do in life (which has proven increasingly difficult these past 5 years) or going down the somber route I'm sure you all will repeatedly tell me is not the answer.
A few notes... I am a male only 21 years of age currently attending college courses. I live in an apartment complex and have a day job in a warehouse as of now. I've never dealt with drug, alcohol or any other sort of substance abuse, not even so much as a cigarette. Nor, has any sort of abuse been an issue in my family. In fact, from the surface, most would say I've lived the typical white bread life. It's mainly my psychological approach of the world around that causes the issues I face. I have what seems to be a growing disdain for humans in general and have pretty much lost my ability to trust anyone.
That's all I can think of for now. I may add more as posts are made perhaps. The reason I have decided to post here is partially out of desperation, and partially because therapy, psychiatrists, etc have proven fruitless for me.