My quit Journal

#105

Postby exstonerinhell » Wed Feb 09, 2022 12:28 am

PowerOfMyMind wrote:So glad to hear you have made it through PAWS. Im at 11 months off Cannabis and its been the toughest 11 months of my life. i too am confident with dedication, perseverance and never giving up i will come out the other side. ive definitely seen many improvements over the last few months but i know i still have work to do on getting well again. ive worked pretty much the whole time since quitting and that has been really hard but im doing it and getting stronger and stronger.
I dream of days when i don't wake up with impending doom feelings and depression. I will heal and get my life back to normality.
I worry about everything atm, im finding it hard to see things in a true perspective but i think that will improve in time.
All the very best to everyone who is going through these tough times known as PAWS. We will heal.
How are you now Tim that its been another year on? Well i hope


Hi PowerofMyMind,

I know you posted this a while back, hope it gets the chance to find you. I pop in from time to time because of the people who got through it before me helped immensely, so I try to stick around some. I'm still quit, still doing well. I'm so removed from it all I just hardly ever think about it. Sometimes something will remind me of me at my worst, but it's almost unreal that I was ever that anxious/depressed/out of it.

I can read my journal and remember what it was like, to some extent, but can't ever recapture how bad things were in my mind. I remember being super afraid that I'd develop some kind of PTSD and be scarred by my experience. That didn't happen, not even close. Once I had my head screwed on straight I almost appreciate what I went through as opposed to being afraid of it. I know what put me in that place, in that mindset. Be it PAWS or just a circumstance of having to reevaluate my whole life that brought on the suffering I endured, it all ended and has never come back.
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#106

Postby exstonerinhell » Wed Feb 09, 2022 12:39 am

Mischief wrote:Hi, 28years chronic daily weed smoker. Thank you for your quit journal exstonerinhell I cannot tell you how much I needed to read this today. :(
I'm only 29 days into quitting for the 2nd time.. Can't believe I've lasted this long punishing myself. Sure its harmless and natural etc etc... I'd believe anything to justify it to myself and others.
This time I know its for real though. I created an account only to thank you.. And those that commented on your journal. Liz, bagofbones and others.
It just needs to be said how helpful your quit journal is for those that still have shame and confusion and just cannot share what they are feeling to people who just cannot understand... This has meant so much to me today. Thank you thank you...
Today your post has been my blessing.


There were other journals that I read day in and day out for a while, pretty sure I listed some of them or in another post on my one year quit. It helped to pass the time, but it also gave me hope. It's not going to fix you, time will do that, but it will help you understand that people have been where you are and got through it. You will too. Maybe the flavor of horror is different for us all, but we can all appreciate how much it sucks. I don't have any great advice on how to get through it. Just keep trucking, one second will turn into a minute, a minute into an hour, and hour in a day...a day into a month...at some point you'll realize the suffering is gone.

You'll find yourself again.
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