PowerOfMyMind wrote:So glad to hear you have made it through PAWS. Im at 11 months off Cannabis and its been the toughest 11 months of my life. i too am confident with dedication, perseverance and never giving up i will come out the other side. ive definitely seen many improvements over the last few months but i know i still have work to do on getting well again. ive worked pretty much the whole time since quitting and that has been really hard but im doing it and getting stronger and stronger.
I dream of days when i don't wake up with impending doom feelings and depression. I will heal and get my life back to normality.
I worry about everything atm, im finding it hard to see things in a true perspective but i think that will improve in time.
All the very best to everyone who is going through these tough times known as PAWS. We will heal.
How are you now Tim that its been another year on? Well i hope
Hi PowerofMyMind,
I know you posted this a while back, hope it gets the chance to find you. I pop in from time to time because of the people who got through it before me helped immensely, so I try to stick around some. I'm still quit, still doing well. I'm so removed from it all I just hardly ever think about it. Sometimes something will remind me of me at my worst, but it's almost unreal that I was ever that anxious/depressed/out of it.
I can read my journal and remember what it was like, to some extent, but can't ever recapture how bad things were in my mind. I remember being super afraid that I'd develop some kind of PTSD and be scarred by my experience. That didn't happen, not even close. Once I had my head screwed on straight I almost appreciate what I went through as opposed to being afraid of it. I know what put me in that place, in that mindset. Be it PAWS or just a circumstance of having to reevaluate my whole life that brought on the suffering I endured, it all ended and has never come back.