Luna824 wrote:Hey Wewilldothis! Just checking in to see how you’re doing? I’m a few days shy of 7 months sober and feeling indifferent about the situation. I’m thankful I’m able to function and go weeks without a symptom/anxiety attack but also frustrated anytime I feel the slightest anxiety. This entire process has been exhausting. But if I can offer words of encouragement I noticed a huge different after 4 months and I hope you do too! Anyways keep me updated.
Hey Luna! I hope you are continuing to do well. I'm just shy of 5 months and continue to slowly improve. I haven't had a panic attack for a long time, my anxiety is controllable but not perfect. I do think the Lexapro helped to stabilize things but certainly was not a magic bullet. I'm functioning again, as a human, a huband, a son, and most importantly a dad but I'm not where I used to be or where I want to be. I still fell pretty flat at times, still get bouts of anxiety/depression but again I trying to appreciate these things will take time. I'm still seeing my therapist/psychaitrist, they've offered to increase dosage/change meds but I've declined as I want to try to continue to heal on my own. Perhaps I had an underlying condition this whole time, I've always had some anxiety but still just feel different after my initial panic attack nearly 6 months ago. I continue to get out and walk everyday, try to meditate for a few minutes a day (just deep breathing) and just be thankful for not feeling how I felt months ago. Things will continue to improve I believe but I've still got a long road ahead.
I tried to incorporate coffee back, that was a no go, its the decaf life for me for now but I've enjoyed a few beers on the weekends and haven't had any ill effects. Interestingly, my drinking has really cut down since I stopped smoking, I used to have a beer/whiskey most nights that I had a toke, now a sparkling water at night does me just fine.
Again, I hope all is well with you and reach out anytime! I'm also on reddit more often then here but will continue to check in.
@GeorgeM-Thank you soo much for the words of encouragement, by far the hardest thing I've been through, maybe not acutely but this is a marathon of pain/agony but one that will certainly build character. I wish you well.
Take care all and catch up again at 6 months!
-WWDT