Good morning!
Well, don't let me talking about women. I don't wanna seem maschilist, but I know how the world is turning around.
That being said, yesterday I talked with some friends, about this girl, again. Yeah I drunk 2 cocktails, I'm not confidence without them, but maybe I did wrong talking of her once again, but so they know what I felt and my version, that of course doesn't match with hers. The one of them said that she just doesn't care about me anymore, like all girls lol. Sad humor.
Anyway I do not want to be hypocrital, I did many mistakes with her. Maybe she really has a big gain to have closed with me.
But let's skip this part.
I didn't try the Assertiveness Training yet, so I don't think it got me in trouble.
So you don’t want to SEEM self-centered. You want to be known as a good listener. Make sure you talk as much about the other person’s life, as your own.
I never saw it in this form. Effectively, I don't go through much in people life, 'Cause I don't care much. And sometimes I don't even hide this, just to seem a particolar guy who don't judge you, 'cause I'm thinking about myself. But I haven't been always like this, simply I noticed that if I don't think about myself, nobody does.
So now when I start I talk too much about my trouble, like yesterday when a friend said "but when She goes out with us, we never talk about this"; I don't know if he meant that she doesn't care anymore or just I'm annoying.
But I'm doing this 'cause many times I saw that who acts like drama queen seems to be appreciated. I don't ask never about others' life. Sure I have to start doing it.
Nearly always, doing and saying nothing is far better than doing anything else.
True.
Instead, sometimes i need to react, for when people think that they can step on me. But there are cases and cases.
People are self-centered, but being humiliated it is not always so light. Think about bullying or who become viral with some crap on youtube. Sometimes people like to hurt each other, me too maybe.
Anyway, I talked long enough to think about a doing list for changing. To be better and lovely, for me, the ones that care about me and who I care.
Stop drinking. Max 1 beer or shot, just to do not seem too asocial when everybody drink lol
Reading these books, if i can get online is better.
Stay calm, and don't being impulsive.
Forget about past, I have to use it for growing, not for being conditionated.
Trying to be more kind and stay strong, 'cause life never miss a hurting hit, and I have not to bow down. And I'm sure that sometimes i will want to give up. Just stay strong.
I don't think it will be easy. I'm really timid and i have so hard feelings; but I can try and giving my best.
Thanks pal'.