Hey there everyone,
I have some questions about hypnosis. Not as a practitioner but as a patient/client (or whatever name I should give it).
I went to a hypnotist therapist some weeks ago, because I have some childhood trauma experiences that really influence my life. I hoped he could help.
It seemed a very trustworthy man, and although I was nervous and half believed I would not be hypnotized very easily, it did happen. It was very calming and I pretty much did not notice that I was hypnotized.
Until I heard him suggest that I would not remember anything that he had said and would not remember what had happened. That I would not know that the thoughts that I would have, were his suggestions. And that I did not feel any need to talk about it with others.
For some reason that last sentence snapped me out of it and I 'woke' (not sure if that is the term) before he was done. I stressed about it and asked him what I should not remember. And right away it popped up in my mind, he had said things about me liking him, coming to visit him, listening to him and feeling attracted to him.
He denied that, and I asked him if I could see the video he had made, because he had a camera there to review later with the client (he had said so beforehand). To give trust.
He gave it to me, but it had not recorded anything. He said he had probably made a mistake and had not pressed the record button the right way.
It happened some weeks ago. And it doesn't leave my mind. I just keep thinking about it and its making me crazy.
Is there a way to really remember everything completely? It seems like a hazy experience. A bit more then an hour had passed, so I should remember a lot right?
I wondered what others might advise me about it. The reason why I visited him in the first place was because I experienced sexual abuse as a child. Those 'trauma' memories now mix up with this new event, making me feel quite confused and depressed.
He of course said that he did not say those things, and that such false memories sometimes happen with hypnosis. But how can I know? I do not trust it at all.
Can I maybe somehow remove the influence he has/suggestions he might have made?