7.5 months now

iHatePaws94 wrote:Hey man thanks for sharing your story. I'm at almost 9 months and am still having a difficult time. It's encouraging to know that these next few months might be a turning point for me. But yeah I agree that this suffering is turning me into a compassionate person as well. I always viewed people with anxiety problems and depression as weak. But now that I've been there myself I feel like a POS for ever thinking that. But yeah I've been trying to train myself into seeing paws as a blessing not a curse. At then end of this thing we're all going to be stronger people because of it. I've heard from people who have recovered that nothing bothers them anymore because nothing is anywhere near as bad as paws. They view every day with good health as a blessing and stop taking things for granted. When faced with adversity we can either let it destroy us or we can get stronger and evolve into better versions of ourselves. Glad you been feeling better! Keep up the fight and keep us posted on your progress.

I am sorry for not responding earlier, didn’t see your message earlier. Month 9 to 12 definitely had major improvements!

It’s cool that you say you thought people with anxiety were just weak, I had exactly the same issue. However, even though I rationally know that people with anxiety aren’t just weak, and that I should show compassion to them. I still catch myself naturally being impatient and ridiculous to them (when feeling great myself).

I think it is in our primal nature to dislike stressed and fearful people. As these personality traits are often associated with weaker people at the bottom of the social hierarchy. Weak men didn’t provide as much resources or protection as strong men while however greatly increasing the chances of
mistakes regarding the group’s survival.

I think it is unnecessary to act on that irritation, but the thought of it is natural I believe.

I totally agree with you on PAWS being a blessing. In the end, what would have happened if we did not get punished for our mistakes. It would only led us to making more mistakes. In my case, I would never have quit the use of substances so drastically without consequences like this. In a way I am glad that I learned the value of health so early in life. Nothing will be worse than PAWS. I hope you too have good luck in your recovery brother!

@Winzu

Long time! I feel your frustration, feeling horrible after a year can be disheartening. I'm in a pretty heavy wave too at the moment, but I'm pushing through, and I bet you are too.

I totally agree with this sentiment and mindset: PAWS is a blessing. I'm (and I believe you are too) only in my early 20s. Heck, covid started when I was 19! Looking back now, life was so easy up to that point. We abused our health in many ways, eating whatever we want, drugs, no exercise, staying up all night, the list goes on.

And then PAWS hit. I don't know if it was the case for everyone else here, but I personally hit rock bottom. And at such a young age, it's rough, but I think it's an amazing lesson in life. I will NEVER make this mistake again. Drugs (including alcohol) are totally out for the rest of my life. I'm going to be very careful about lifestyle choices I make from here. But I'm also really excited about our tolerance after PAWS: "Nothing will be worse than PAWS." We have a lot of experiences ahead of us, but I have a strong feeling nothing will be harder than this journey. We are becoming tough in ways we never expected, and it's going to show I hope you guys are doing well in your journey!

Btw: @Winzu I saw your PM, but I can't reply, it says I'm still a new member and need to post more (??)

@winzu
@9mQ

How are you guys feeling now? My PAWs seems to have followed a similar timeline to both of yours so I have found your posts really helpful and encouraging. I hope things are continuing to get better for you both.

@iHatePaws94 I did really well the whole of November, then towards the end started having bits of PAWS. Now, a wave has blown up in my face over the last 2 days and it sucks. I'll be posting an update.

Are you still around Winzu?

9monthquit wrote:Are you still around Winzu?

Yes, I am here!

20 months

It is bizarre to realize that it has been 20 months since quitting weed, and I am still suffering from time to time. How can I be so damned for smoking this devilish plant for 2 freakin years…

I mean, I am currently in a bad wave since a month. But to be honest, even when I am ‘out of a wave’ I have my struggles. I don’t feel the need to constantly talk or think about my disorder, which is great. And I have true pleasure in almost every single day. But I f***ing hate that I occasionally can’t sleep, or have stomach problems. Or that I am still not able to go workout in the gym, as all these external stressors are still too much for me.

I just want to be my old self again, a normal human being. Who is confident, expressive and stress-free.

I know both the good and bad are improving over-time. But it still so difficult sometimes. I need a real gasp of air. A break from this, having my old life for a day. Its a marathon, but a damn long one. I am certain I will finish it. But I am getting exhausted of this. I can’t do this for another 2 years.

PAWS has been a truly horrifying torture, but also a blessing in disguise. If quitting weed was so easy, I would have never stayed sober. As I am certain now, weed addiction will never be a problem again.

I am not here to discourage. I have been greatly improving over-time. I successfully launched a business in the midst of PAWS. Quit all my addictions. And maintained almost every good habit possible during the toughest time in my life. But it can still be hard sometimes and I just want to express my frustrations…

I will update soon.

Much love,
Winzu

Welcome back. I'm 21 months in and I completely relate with everything you've said here. Oh how relieving it would be to just have PAWS lift entirely, and to have feel like your fresh old self. We'll get there, we got this.

How about continuing this conversation at https://forum.weedpaws.net/index.php, before the Uncommon Forum goes down at the end of the month?

+1 to Candid. Only about 2 weeks till the forum goes down. We should try to move to https://forum.weedpaws.net, you can link on your new post to indicating you're continuing from your current one: https://uncommonforumarchive.com/viewto ... l?t=109081

That's an archive link from the mirror, so people can go back and see to gain all the context they need!