I hate to eat!!

Life is gross, a lot of it is, please dont cut off your ear. Thats proof that humans are intelligent and animals are not I guess, i've never seen a dog not eat becuase it over-analyzed the process of consuming something.

sheesh go down that route of thinking too much and it never ends - i saw a bird today pecking at some breadcrumbs and then i looked at a human and thought - eugh how disgusting do we look with our huge bodies and the large amounts of food we stuff ourselves with, and the stupid ideas we have. the bird seemed way more intelligent with its' simple un-complicated life. I find having to constantly eat annoying as well, WHY doesn't a bowl of cereal keep you going 'till the end of the day, surely that's enough goddamit.

Well i prety much hate anything that keeps me from my daily life...

Eating, sleeping, going to the bathroom etc...

It all seems like such a disturbance and a distraction to what i am doing. Especially sleeping i find very annoying. I sometimes stay up longer then 24h because i simply refuse to 'waste' time sleeping.

As for eating, i can enjoy a good meal but a typically eat 'late' because i postpome it to the very last minute when my stomach is making such a fuss i just can't ignore it anymore.

I could take some of my own advice here and maybe this doesn't help you at all but, perhaps you should try setting strict houres to when you eat. That way you can already incalculate that at that specific houre you are going to have to take a break to eat. This way you can avoid the feeling like 'argh not NOW' since you already know in advance that you will eat at that time.

Not sure if it helps but you can give it w whirl...

Also on the fact that eating is gros. Well alot of the things we do are gros when you analyse them to far. Infact human being are pretty gros in their own right. Organic life simply IS gros. We get sweaty and start to smell, if we don't wash atleast once a day the smell gets really BAD, hair gets greasy, were mostly full of fecal matter etc etc. We are pretty gros in general. I guess the way to deal with this is to simply accept it and just try to find comfort in the fact that you are doing everything humanly possible to insure hygene. Eventhough it's not possible to be completely sqeeky clean...