Day 10 after 25 years daily toking:
- Sleep: Last two night was the first time I got 7 or more hours of mostly uninterupted sleep in a long, long time. Use to wake in middle of the night to toke then back to sleep.
- Mind: Cravings come and go, very much come along as part of my routine. When I do things where I use to toke before hand the thoughts about weed come. Easy to overcome though since I don't want it at all. My motivation and ambition are rebounding back to my former stoner levels (I was a "high functioning" stoner) but it plumeted when I first stopped. Didn't want to do anything in the begining days.
- Emotions: Feeling slight / mild signs of my emotions returning. I honestly forget what emotions feel like. Teared up a couple of days ago while thinking about my progress and how much better it feels to not be baked all the time
- Hunger: Natural hunger is returning. Before I would not get hungry until I toked and doing intermitent fasting was easy. Hard for me to make it until lunch time without food now.
I'm much more at peace now. I got a 1/4lbs of weed and a crop of dehydrated and dying plants here and I don't give a sh** about it/them. I don't subscribe to the throwing it away, though I will soon get rid of it and use my grow gear for strawberries or edible herbs / spices. I couldn't risk the financial burden if my quit didn't work. If having weed in the house is the difference between me stopping or not then I didn't do it right (for me, please use your own discretion). I quit drinking years ago and there is always booze in the house consumed by those who rarley drink. Accessibility, for me, isn't how quitting works. My mind set is in the right spot atm.
I feel like I'm becoming happy again, its good to meet me, again