So, tonight....I posted on social media and how excited I was that we were taking our children on a cruise. And that was it.
He read it and stormed out of his office: "******, you can piss me off sometimes! I can't believe you! I don't want anyone knowing our financial situation, our personal trips, our personal lives."
I replied, "I'm sorry? I was just excited. Fine, I delete it."
Him: "It's too late! The whole world knows now!" and then he storms off into his office.
So during the next couple hours, of course we just pass it each other...pissed off and quiet. I'm sitting here on the computer and he comes up to me.
"Should we talk more about earlier?"
I replied: "I know how you feel. There's nothing to talk about."
He says, "Well, then lets talk about being mad at each other."
I said, "What's there to talk about? It's the same old story. I'm not mad at you for reacting. I'm mad at you for how you react. Like always, you can't deliver a message correctly."
Then you can see his blood start to boil. But because our daughters friend is here, he controls his tone.
"You know I get mad when I have to repeat myself. You deserved to be yelled at."
I just stared at him. All of sudden I feel like I'm being treated as one of our children.
I said, "Well, I just need time."
and he walks away.
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You need to understand, that this has been going on for years. We've had long talks about it. It seems to have boiled down to 'if I listened the first time, then he wouldn't get mad.'
I try not to be disrespectful towards him. But it has come to a point where now, I can't approach him with anything in fear of being jumped on verbally.
Anyways, I don't know if I could live the next however many years having to deal with this.
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I'm also open to being the wrong one in this situation. Maybe I do deserve his wrath. But I'm telling you right now, Ive seen worse wives. They nag and whine and their out spending money like crazy. I teach our children at home, clean, cook and trust me, not stingy in bed. Part of me thinks, if I'm going to be treated like this, I may as well act like witch and then I would really deserve it! (not really). Another part of me thinks I deserve better as well. Everytime I'm out, I get hit on by very handsome men...but out of loyalty and commitment, I stand firm and ignore their pantings. It's time like these where I start thinking, "If you only knew that I can drop you like a bad habit a-hole....and replace you quickly." But of course, that's not what a nice wife thinks...right?
Anyways, I've always said that knowing to communicate is not enough....but it's important to know HOW to communicate. My husband lacks in this area and despite having to repeat myself, he doesn't learn! So do I start raising my voice to him??
Sorry for a novel. I guess this more of a venting session right now for me. I would love to throw back a few shots of Calvados but I can't find it in America!
Guess I'll settle for posting on a random site on anger management! 
