Developing a mature character

Dear reader,

I am a 20 year old guy from Western Europe who needs to grow the **** up and i ask you to answer me with some articles, ideas, movies or books that help me to go there.

about me: I was a very happy and smart boy as an infant, i was extremely articulate at the age of 2. I still have a lot of memories of my infancy. In the years around first grade in highschool my situation took a turn and i started using dope and acting destructive which was the path to drop out of school. I became an asskisser with girls and i had a very bad relation with my mother. My intellectial inspirations (i love philosophy and art) did not manage to overcome this anxious angry introversy that i experience. I used to make 10 friends a minute, now i only lose them.

But, the last months the situation gets better. I experiment with my attitude (i spend a lot of time with my family and less on the street), i started a study as a nurse, i take more responsibility and i create a clear future picture. I am going to take a course in drawing and dancing and will sign up for martial arts later this month.

This must be enough for you to get a clear picture of me and i hope you can send me some money, now.. i mean some references.

P.S I am also looking for a correspondent