Me and my partner are just going through a very stressful split at the moment because of me and my anger.
Today I went up to his house to try and get some of my stuff but he wouldnt let me. I ended up waiting for him to finish work, (he wouldnt answer the phone to me) when he came home from work I was so wound up when I saw him because he'd had the locks changed and Id been waiting for him for over an hour I just saw red. We started arguing and I flipped, I hit him and he slapped me back which made me even more angry so I hit him again. This time I cut his eye, that scared me because Id realised what Id done so I tried to do a runner over the fence (which ended up with me cutting all my leg open).
In the meantime whilst all this was happening he had rang my mum to come and get me because he couldnt calm me down but when she got there even she couldnt calm me down and ended up ringing the police and an ambulance, she said I needed professional help.
Id managed to calm down at this point but spoke to the police officer anyway who persuaded me to go to the hospital.
The hospital is referring me to a psychiatric advisor (whatever one of them is).
Now I feel so guilty in what I have done, I am very embarrassed and I cant believe I have done this to my partner and my family.
At this moment in time Im worried at what this psychatric advisor is going to say, Im scared they are going to tell me Im losing it.
Can anyone give me some advice Please