Hello all.
I have a problem with woman i love very dearly who is suffering from depression. I really want to help her but i am going thru my own hell in trying to do so.
The story goes like this.
I was with this woman for 14 months. We broke up at her decision in February this year. We lived together for 12 months. At the end she tyold me the reason was she 'needed to find herself.'
Now she has suffered from depression for ages - she used also to be a stripper and took alot of drugs and also cam e from a broken home. She always told me that alot of people have let her down.
Our relationship was not bad - I was there for her 100% - hell I lost ocntact with my kids, I got her a job, helped her get her license and so on.
Anyways, I had practically moved on when she contacted me back (just before Easter) at first I ignored her and wished it away but in the end I contacted her back. She ultimately rang me asking about if I was with anyone else and how I was and so on. SHe told me she wanted to catch up.
Hardest thing was she also got her old job back working with me. Makes it harder.
Anyhow, we started talking and since then we have seen each other a few times - with her staying over a couple of times. Odd thing is though she drops her barriers and tells me she feels 'loved and supported and feminine' when I am with her and that she still loves me (we have only has sex once, but mainly it is simple cuddling and intimacy,) but then when she goes away she then appears to talk herself into rubbish about only wanting to be 'friends.'
I can see it in her actions what she wants but her words seem to tell otherwise. I know she is going thru alot with her therapy (she has been diagnosed as having 'catastrophic thoughts' and she tells me that her therapist has told her she is very sad inside.)
Now, I get many mixed messages and it is VERY hard for me, but I want to wait. Mainly I am here posting because I want to know more about what she is going thru and what I could expect to face. I want this woman back because I honestly believe that it is a good thngs for both of us.
PLease help me understand some.