Nyx9000 wrote:I am in my twenties and I am a female. I have only killed animals, a dog and pig along with two cats. I beat the cats to death and cut the pig open and the dog I ran over with my car. I was 10 when I killed the pig, and at 15 I beat the cats. The dog I killed about a year ago. I enjoyed cutting the pig the most, while the cats and the dog where not a satisfying.
Dear Nyx,
Of course Mr. Naithiz is very correct in suggesting you seek appropriate medical advice. You are young enough where it is reasonable to suppose that you might be inclined to escalate, and you have actually killed things and so it is not just something that you are imagining that you might like if you ever tried it. But you have tried it and you really do like killing things.
There is not much real advice I can give on such a thing, but I was wondering to myself that it seems kind of a waste that a person who would seem to be, well, a natural born killer can’t find a Government sanctioned job doing what she loves to do. We know that even the Liberal Western Governments traffic in murder once in a while. Not all killing is done by those Drone Machines. I guess that the CIA still does some hands-on work. And I don’t think they would use their Agents for such work… they need to deny so much. They would farm it out to their ‘assets’, wouldn’t they? Well, it sounds like you would make a good ‘asset’.
Do you have career plans. Are you already set on anything? Many of the English Speaking Western Nations – America, Canada, the UK and Australia… I’m guessing you are from some place like that. Well, they are opening their Military Ranks to women, but the Combat Specialties would be the ones you would want, especially just plain old Infantry Rifleman. From there you could get certified as a Sniper, and that is some real Sanctioned Murder. But, I think that most of the Militaries still restrict the areas where they allow full female participation.
You could take a long shot and simply write to whatever your Country has that is like the American CIA or Department of Homeland Defense, and explain to them that you would could make a wonderful asset and that they should pick you up and train you and use you for something truly useful and patriotic before you end up getting yourself into trouble ‘going it alone’.
Of course there are people who free-lance as killers, and there I imagine women are in huge demand, because I would think that body guards would tend to let their guard down when it comes to ‘girls’. But the problem there is that you can’t advertise. I don’t know how such career people can start out. But once they are known about by elements of the Underworld, well, what I guess happens is a carrier shows up on their front porch and asks them to sign for a package. Inside are instructions and a photo and a good size chunk of money, with the promise of more being sent when the job gets done. Oh, I guess they can communicate using the Personal Ads in the Newspaper, but nowadays I suppose they can simply go online somewhere and post a certain phrase for ‘yes’ and a certain phrase for ‘no’, and a certain phrase for “I’ll need twice as much money as you offered”. But, although I’ve watched all the movies, just like everybody else, I can’t imagine how a person can start off on such a career. You can’t just bring it up in a bar that you are available for that kind of work, well because the City Police and the F.B.I. have agents and assets all over the place pretending to want this done or that done, or pretending to be all mobbed up, and they are like spiders waiting for Wannabee hitmen and women to fall into their clutches. Oh, and there is the very important point to be made that probably all of these ideas free flowing from my very active imagination would result somewhere along the line in some illegal activity… illegal even for the Governments that do it. And so you would want to avoid making plans in any of those directions.
So anyway, I suspect that this has been all very useless. But I didn’t want to just dismiss you. I thought that if I thought long enough, I could think of something. But maybe there just is no way to find a Silver Lining around this very Dark Cloud of yours.
Oh, before I go… I just thought of something. Slaughter houses need people. Usually they have to rotate personnel in and out of the killing jobs, because, well, ordinary people get freaked out by it after a while. Also, have you tried getting work in Kennels, or with the Humane Society. They call it the Humane Society, but there are always too many stray animals to find homes for, and so many animals have to be ‘put to sleep’. And there too, the personnel are rotated because the people tend to get freaked out if they have to constantly kill kill kill for more than a few days in a row. But you could explain that you don’t mind, and after they look at you funny, they might realize that since you like it and everyone else hates it, well, “Lady you got a job”. Killing animals on such a regular basis might help you keep the lid on so you don’t kill anything that might get you into some really serious trouble… Like Mr. Naithiz was saying.