My 2.5 years

Hi guys. I don’t leave much comments here (I post only when I reach a new milestone) but I never stopped reading the forum. So now it‘s been 2,5 years since I stopped smoking pot. Actually it will be 2,5 years in a couple of weeks, but I have just read “2,5 years thread”, and lots of stuff resonated with what I experienced and still feel and I decided to write about it. I smoked pot for around 10 years and the last 5 years before I quit I smoked daily, only high grade weed which I grew on my own.
My last post was when I reached 2 years mark and honestly I don’t remember what I wrote there. Haha… I guess I was very positive as paws disappeared and I was just about to leave for another country to study again. OK the bottom line is: I still sometimes feel as if I don’t need anything so I don’t want to move forward.. to socialise etc.. hard to explain .. what is this? Depression? I have no idea…I sleep good in general, but sometimes I have very vivid dreams and I wake up all sweaty. But honestly, I am not sure this is connected with abusing of drugs which stopped a long time ago, I just refuse to accept that this is possible after 2.5 years! I know there are lots of reasons for night sweating… The only thing is I just never had this before I stopped smoking. Also, very rarely I got my ears clogged.. And I sometimes feel fatigue which comes from nowhere and all these things sometimes are a bit discouraging, to be honest.
As you might have noticed, English is not my native language and I’ve been studying it for a long time, I’ve been living in English-speaking country for 5 months now, actually not just living, I am studying here and I still struggle with it. I feel as if I am not progressing at all…I thought it would be way easier to reach fluency once I immerse myself into the English-speaking environment but I was wrong and this makes me feel as if I am completely incompetent. Please do not understand me wrong: I now there is some progress, but it is soooo slow and sometimes I still struggle with constructing simple sentences and applying very basic grammar rules. I believe it is because my brain is still healing and I am not fully recovered yet.
Also, I agree with guys who say that paws /anxiety /depression or whatever you want to call it, are easily triggered by things like caffeine or refined sugar. I don’t drink and smoke but I am sure these things are even worse than caffeine and sugar. Caffeine may cause anxiety and I noticed that sugar results in drowsiness / laziness and a kind of a state of depression, so to speak.
Ok guys, I wish you all the best! Eat healthy, think positively, stay strong, and be happy because you deserve it!!!