XTREME201 wrote:being dead will be a relief.
No it won't. It'll be NOTHING. No you. Gone. Kaputsky. That's at
best. Religious persons and wishful thinkers would tell you it's a crime to kill yourself, and you're gonna regret it in the 'afterlife'. Your choice.
Well I guess I won't be anything when I am pushing up daisies...
No, that's what I believe.
Get angry. You've got a right. A lot has gone wrong for you and everything you've tried has led to failure. So get good and angry, write angry letters to people who've wronged you (best not to send them) then tell us what you want for the rest of your life. If you have any love for yourself at all, you need to keep trying to get what you want.