What are ways to let thoughts go of those who wronged you in the past while you bit your tongue? I was in a situation a few years back, needed help, and basically was kicked while down. I can't help but to imagine hurting or even killing at times just to calm myself, and at times shaking. I directly look for conflict now, trying to excuse it as me being strong. There's a decent chance I'll see these people again sometime in my life, and when I do I often imagine there being a situation where I can be excused for speaking every insulting word that crosses my mind, and brutalize them.
What frustrates me more, is that while I sit here with all this anger built up, I know there's not a day they think about me. Are there ways to let go of anger this strongly? I was at a period of my life where I took so much, not realizing that all the small and big things add up, and that there's better alternatives than to just "take the punch." Just hoping for some insight or similar experience really. Thank you.