It is like there is a switch in my head. My dad only has to try and talk to me when i am reading and I will beat him up. I am a 17 year old girl. I should not have this type of anger.
It all started when my boyfriend of 3 years left me for another woman, he was a lot older than me, and I thought everything was fine. I fell into deep depression. He also was emotionally and physically abusing me.
Since then I have seen him and his new girlfriend and beaten them to the extent that it took seven adults to pull me off these two fully grown adults. I didnt even remember hardly any of the fight the next morning, all I knew was that it happened.
I flip at everything, I am worried for my parents or my sister, there are times I get so angry I want to kill myself or them and sometimes have to use every inch of my being not to take a knife and finish myself off.
Help me please, I just dont want to be angry anymore.
