Music. Books. Video games I liked history books enjoyed video games civilisation was my fav also dune my sister had a 386 was playing on that I was always a music fan liked the radio stations in my early childhood I dreamed of publishing magazines etc
Too much emphasis on your work, and the anxiety provoked by your work. Shift your focus to a daydream then consider what you might do to make it happen.
Desperate, I haven't forgotten your very long thread Diaries of a guy who lives hard days... You've done enough hard days. When do you think the good times are coming?