by zoolfoos » Mon Jul 26, 2004 1:53 pm
Hi to Somewhere over the Rainbo.
You shouldn't feel stupid about that at all. It's perfectly normal. There are many people in the same position as you. It used to be quite the same with me...
I've always gone to Church, and it always seemed like nobody wanted to have anything to do with me. Several years ago, after I was confirmed, some kids in the Church were having a party to celebrate. My mom encouraged me to go along. Of course, I thought that this was pointless and I would just sit by myself the whole time. Well, that's sort of what happened. Later on I gathered up the courage to make a casual joke. They all started laughing and for the rest of the night I was much more comfortable with my new friends. Actually, one of my friends sometimes likes to say: "Before that party you never talked. But, after that party you never stopped talking."
I know how hard it can be to do this, but you should try talking to somebody you don't know. Try it somewhere that you feel fairly comfortable. For me that was Church. I think you'll find that people can be much more friendly than they seem. The truth is that many people are just as afraid to talk to "the quiet person" as you are afraid to talk to them. Most likely nobody is going to judge you immediatley, and if they do, oh well, it's their loss. I'm sure you'll find somebody you like, and after that, it DOES become much easier.
I hope I've helped you. Good luck!