I want to share my public speaking fear with you guys . Unfortunately, I am not a teenager or a college student, I am 27 years old professional with around 5 years work experience in different multinational companies. Luckily the jobs I held doesn't involve communication with people much, so I did Ok as far as job goes but never made many friends/acquaintance at work place. I have changed three jobs and every time I join new company I make a promise to myself that I will not end up to be a loner here but it just happens itself. I don't know why I open up to so less that soon people start distancing themselves from me. Though I talk less one on one but I still manage to keep a conversation going but as soon as a third person comes in I would just become anonymous and feel like left out of the conversation. I know the main fear is that "what would people think of it" , every night I sleep I decide that I will not think about what people say cause at the moment they are saying the same so why not express myself but I just can't implement it. This fear has made me sit on my desk quietly for whole 8 hour of work time doing my work without talking with anyone. I have no social life and I feel uncomfortable in gatherings. When in friend I am very comfortable but as soon as third person comes in, who is stranger to me I feel so uncomfortable that I will be almost quite.
Currently I am single but I am already 27 and if I start a new relationship it will be difficult as I am a loner. Recently someone suggested me to consult a psychiatrist, I don't know if that helps.