hi guys, im just gonna explain the situation.
so basically i have severe anxiety and some OCD( i get obsessive thoughts), my boyfriend and i have been together for 8 months and recently he asked me to move with him to another state. i said yes and were still in the process of everything, right now he lives in another state but comes to visit me.
i have always felt completely relaxed around my boyfriend.. anxiety has never been an issue and it never interfered with our relationship until recently.
lately i get panicked feelings that i don't like him, that i don't want to be with him, that i'm going to ruin our relationship, etc etc
these feelings deeply upset me. all i've ever wanted was to be with this man and we went through a lot to be together, and now we're about to start a life together somewhere new and i'm getting these awful feelings. they upset me because i know that they are not true, or atleast i really hope they aren't. my boyfriend also has anxiety, so we've both gotten used to just letting eachother know our thoughts, and this has just been eating me alive because i can't possibly explain this to him.
in the past i dated and stayed with a man that i knew i did not love for two years but stayed because he was my best friend but with him i knew i didn't love him and that i never would, but i really feel like this guy im with is someone i could build a life with.. do amazing things with.. and i'm just so scared i'll ruin it. that i'll stop loving him.
i'm getting help for my anxiety and taking medication but i just really need an opinion on how to deal with this. he's coming to visit me soon and i just want to be able to love him the same. please any help, thoughts would be appreciated.. thank you