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medusa999 wrote:Leo...the forums will not let me answer you yet. But i am good. ANYHOO....I am now positive that my job is what is keeping me in a foul mood a lot. I am on vacation this week and giving my attention to things that are important to me and I feel as if a weight has been lifted off me. I am not even going to go down there and get my paycheck this Friday. I have nothing pressing and don't feel that i need to go near that place even to get paid. You KNOW you hate a job when you won't even take the time to go get paid.
Dear Medusa!
Wow! I thought you were here by a Million Years by now. I guess it does not take that long to become old friends. But you still can’t post PMs…. But that problem will soon go away.
Wow! We are exactly the same – I Hated my Job! You know, I am subject to Anger Issues, but when the boss called me into the Office and told me that I was the One who got Downsized for the New Contract (the Boss never liked me much… he had been promoted up from being nothing more than a clerk, but because he ‘seemed’, on paper’ to have the requisite experience. BUT, while he was still a co-worker I made it quite obvious that I thought he was a useless do-nothing Idiot…. Oh! So Unwise! It is the Useless Do-Nothing Idiots that become Bosses, no?).
But, I THOUGHT I would have an emotional reaction to being fired, BUT, even at the very moment, I didn’t. ‘Okay’, I thought… ‘I didn’t have a Job when I got this One’. No Big Deal… and I had money in the bank.
Oh ‘Jiminy Cricket’ it was SO GOOD not to have to go, every day to a Hostile Workplace. Yes, One must Control One’s Anger, but Patience and Human Endurance weens thin when at one’s workplace one is consistently treated with disrespect and actual rudeness ( the Idiots think they are being ‘subtle’… but they never had the capacity to know that with me, well, nothing they could do would be ‘subtle’ – part of the problem with them is that they never could admit that I See and Know Everything… well… relative to those Idiots…)
So… being ‘Retired’ (on social security which pays most of my bills, but I have bank account to fall back on) I am very much more Happy.
I have decided to start a 2nd Career -- to be a Math Teacher or a Tudor. In the University I had gotten a BA Degree, but had since then felt remorse that I had not gotten a BS Degree. My Father was abusive to my older brothers for not doing well in Advanced Math and Science Classes, and so I steered around them, and it shaped my Future. I should have realized that I was SMARTER than my older brothers and had no need to worry…. But weighing the possible penalties (humiliation and actual beatings) against the Rewards (of which I knew nothing…. Back then, if one Graduated from College in ANYTHING, one’s prosperous future was virtually guaranteed… well, so I thought… those days were over. The Endless Recessions kicked in.
But, NOW, it’s never too late. I wake up… do the household chores, and then study Math until late in the Evening… when I do my Music Practice (I am the Best Musician I know… on several instruments. But it is not like anybody Pays for Good Musicians…. So that is not a Career… just a very relaxing and emotionally rewarding Hobby).
The Math Studies keep me busy and out of trouble. And so I am Happy. I wish it would progress faster, but, there is a big difference between knowing how to struggle through Math, and being able to Teach It. So I go back and repeat entire chapters until I can Talk My Way Through Problems… just like an actual Teacher Could… or Should. My Perception is that Most Working Math Teachers and Tudors are probably not as fastidious as myself – they go over it in their lesson plans and become aware of the problems presently confronting them…. BUT if anything else pops up… some unexpected question by a Very Smart Student, well, they, I suspect, would be caught off guard. So I review and repeat until it is second nature to me… what else do I have to do? If I am going to be a Math Teacher or a Math Tutor… well, I am not going to be Half Assed about it.
So, yes, Medusa… Workplaces, with all the politics, can suck. Not because everyone Hates you for the Right Reasons (being lazy and incompetent) but for exactly the Wrong Reasons --- People in slightly Higher Job Classifications absolutely HATE IT when people ‘beneath them’ are apparently more qualified than they are – they find it threatening. Well, Idiots do. When I was in the Military and found that one of my Subordinates was Simply Outstanding, well, I let it be known all the way up the Chain of Command… even if the possible interpretation was that I was, in effect, saying that my Subordinate was better than me. So what if he was? If the Guy was as good as I said, then I wouldn’t mind working under him…. Simple as that. But, well, I am an ENLIGHTENED BEING and probably have been, for the most part for some 20 or 30 years. But there is no accounting for the Clouded and Be-Nighted Idiots that crowd the Work Force… making like miserable for all of Sweet, Peace-loving, and Enlightened Workers who are only trying to make a living, but while doing the Best that we can…. Which is resented, perhaps more times than not.