Please don't think badly of me for this. I really don't think I'm a bad person, I'm just very messed up at the moment.
There's so much that's going wrong in my life at the moment but the main thing is this anger.
The outbursts I've had vary in severity - sometimes I get angry and just scream, othertimes I've actually hit people. The main problem is that I don't actually remember doing it 99% of the time. Now, the times when I have actually physically 'went for' someone I have been drunk. Not just slightly drunk but completely drunk. I still get really angry over the slightest things in everyday life though, today I was upset after a conversation with bf and I went from crying to throwing my mug at the wall in literally a minute.
The coping techniques someone told me are really good but what causes this? I'm utterly ashamed of myself afterwards but it's almost like it's someone else.