Yup, that was my day, But I was wrong. Its really bad. My mind its too f***ed and depressed, I cant control my emotions, Im angry, very angry, and sad. Yup. Crying again. Very happy life. Like why I am still living..
What you have written are your values and desires to be. Until you live by those values and use them in your own life you are not in a position to use them for others I would suggest. Try living by them and perhaps they will open you up to what is your future path?
If you are getting off on brutality to animals you need support. Anonymity in an online forum will not help. It will only result in discussing a topic that brings you arousal.