I really relate to your story Deff. The wax, the sedation level, the reasons etc. My problem at your stage, about a month in, was the way I became supercritical. Overwhelmed. The extreme never ending amount of details. I couldn't step back and mentally breath. I didn't reward as I should I believe. ...
I've relapsed, now for the third time. I haven't given up on giving up, I'm just stuck in the duldrums. I've realized I'm not letting anyone down but myself, and that I do NOT want to be the person I am when I'm high.
And for the last note, I would advise you something unusual: if you're having real trouble staying from weed(which definitely doesn't have to be like that), go ahead and smoke. Smoke the finest strain with some people and in that moment you will see you how you really were during smoking years: fog...
Ohhhhhh,.... After reviewing your comments on other threads.... no there wasn't any confusion. You expect help but slam others.. Don't get that at all. Good luck with your problems, your gonna need it. I'm done with this thread as well, another waste of time for me and you. I posted here because I t...