If you're ready to start you career and gain some money for your life and live alone without parents - just stop to "belive in god". if no - you have to play your role in this play =(
I think you need the help of well qualified doctor. As fast as you can - to prevent hurting your health. just pick up your back from chair and go to hospital.
Just forget about her. Two years - too long to wait for nothing. She tries to show you how she can live without you. Find another smart and beautiful women, or you'll waste your life for hanging around her.
Its seems to me very strange - be bisex and relationship with one person. I think you have to choose whom do you prefer more men or women. then build you relationship.