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Re: Help please, can't breathe, having regular panic attacks

I stay for the same reason as millions of other people have stayed over the centuries - children and money. I have 4 children - if we split, my Wife will get them and the house, and 4 lots of maintenance. I will be left with virtually fuck-all...... .....even more so when I have finished training my...
by BSG75
Wed Jan 31, 2018 6:17 pm
 
Forum: Anxiety and Panic Attacks
Topic: Help please, can't breathe, having regular panic attacks
Replies: 8
Views: 3513

Help please, can't breathe, having regular panic attacks

Hi, can you help me please gang; I'm having a panic attack now so forgive my diction and spelling. Two years ago I fell in love with someone......despite being married.....and despite this woman being my Wife's best friend. I'm not sure if it was stupidity or Genetic Sexual attraction; probably the ...
by BSG75
Wed Jan 31, 2018 4:49 pm
 
Forum: Anxiety and Panic Attacks
Topic: Help please, can't breathe, having regular panic attacks
Replies: 8
Views: 3513

I've been an idiot, and I need help fixing it

Hi, I have been a real idiot. At least I think. I’m not sure. I’m very unhappily married – or I was, not sure now – and last year I fell head-over-heels in love for a girl who is exactly my “type” – small, petite, brown hair. It wasn't difficult to do - my Wife and I were in a bad place. She had don...
by BSG75
Tue Mar 07, 2017 5:03 pm
 
Forum: Relationships
Topic: I've been an idiot, and I need help fixing it
Replies: 2
Views: 1307

Re: Should I help get her friends back ?

Her friends were always an integral part of my life. They weren't silod. They would be over all the time, I would be asked to do jobs for them like moving their house, they and their kids would have sleepovers. So I had close contact with them. It all started going wrong about 12 months ago when in ...
by BSG75
Tue Jan 10, 2017 9:37 pm
 
Forum: Relationships
Topic: Should I help get her friends back ?
Replies: 5
Views: 1909

Should I help get her friends back ?

Hi, Over the last year to 18 montrhs, I have been a thoroughly unpleasant individual. I suffer crippling depression, and my Wife has been very controlling and isolating over the years. Nevertheless, I want to be there for my kids, and I have no idea how to start again, so for better or worse, I stic...
by BSG75
Mon Jan 09, 2017 2:43 pm
 
Forum: Relationships
Topic: Should I help get her friends back ?
Replies: 5
Views: 1909

I really liked this girl :(

Apparently I am clever. I was recently tested for Autism, and they found I have an IQ of 135 and am in the top 3% of the population in terms of my ability to communicate. However, the following story tells the story of someone pretty stupid, making stupid mistakes, and needing some help and guidance...
by BSG75
Tue Jul 05, 2016 3:14 pm
 
Forum: Relationships
Topic: I really liked this girl :(
Replies: 2
Views: 1654

Re: Why do I have no friends. I mean, literally, none.

I used to be an Infantry Officer in the Army, so I wouldn't say that I don't like or want friendship. You wouldn't survive in that environment as a loner. I'm not a geek, I despise this job with all my heart and soul. It's just I have bills to pay and it's the first civilian job I fell into. I can't...
by BSG75
Thu May 21, 2015 9:22 am
 
Forum: Depression
Topic: Why do I have no friends. I mean, literally, none.
Replies: 7
Views: 2891

Why do I have no friends. I mean, literally, none.

Hi There, I am a very depressed person, always have been, and I suspect I will still be on my 5 anti-depressants a day when I die. There's lots of reasons for this - upbringing, being married to a narcissistic control freak, a sh** job where we've had a round of redundancies every year since 1999, a...
by BSG75
Fri May 15, 2015 2:17 pm
 
Forum: Depression
Topic: Why do I have no friends. I mean, literally, none.
Replies: 7
Views: 2891

Time to go

Dear xxxxxxxx, Unfortunately the time has now come where I simply cannot take any more, and I have no choice other than to leave. Your increasing use of phrases such as “perhaps I should just go away” or “do you want me to leave?” of late convinces me you feel the same way. It is clear to me that ou...
by BSG75
Fri Mar 07, 2014 2:36 pm
 
Forum: Relationships
Topic: Time to go
Replies: 1
Views: 760

Hi BSG75, I am 49 years old , and I also work in IT (specifically Wide Area Networking). Although, I am very rarely called upon to write code, I am absolutely confident that I can become proficient in any Computer Language in about a month, so long as I have access to the relevant manual(s). In add...
by BSG75
Tue Jan 14, 2014 2:52 pm
 
Forum: Depression
Topic: Not spending the next 30 years watching TV
Replies: 18
Views: 4807

Other than your life ending, what would be the perfect solution for you to all this? What could happen to make you absolutely want to keep going? That's easy. My Wife disappearing, and me being left with the kids. And having a friend would be nice. It's our anniversary party in a few weeks. And do ...
by BSG75
Mon Jan 13, 2014 1:55 pm
 
Forum: Depression
Topic: Not spending the next 30 years watching TV
Replies: 18
Views: 4807

Are your computing skills transferrable to other IT jobs? I know you said they aren't and perhaps you may want to try a different recruitment consultant that values their clients a little bit more rather than, it would seem, looking at why you can't get another job? Also of the things that you said...
by BSG75
Mon Jan 13, 2014 1:51 pm
 
Forum: Depression
Topic: Not spending the next 30 years watching TV
Replies: 18
Views: 4807

What do you think would be harder on your kids? Their parents splitting up or their father committing suicide? If you're willing to suffer through an awful marriage for your kids, then shouldn't you endure your life for your kids? The good news is that you have much more control over your life than...
by BSG75
Sat Jan 11, 2014 12:14 pm
 
Forum: Depression
Topic: Not spending the next 30 years watching TV
Replies: 18
Views: 4807

Not spending the next 30 years watching TV

Hi, They say that suicide is a long-term solution to short-term problems, but my problems really are long-term.....so is suicide "OK" if you see what I mean ? I genuinely despise my life. I work for a major multinational that has just fired 3000 of my colleagues, and I am almost certainly ...
by BSG75
Fri Jan 10, 2014 2:21 pm
 
Forum: Depression
Topic: Not spending the next 30 years watching TV
Replies: 18
Views: 4807

Another night up the Hospital

Hi All, after another night in A&E, I really need some help. I have been battling depression for years. I thought I was OK the last few months, but the last week or so I have been slipping again. Have been writing my goodbye notes, stocking up on Paracetamol, the usual stuff. Had a target date o...
by BSG75
Thu Mar 25, 2010 3:19 pm
 
Forum: Relationships
Topic: Another night up the Hospital
Replies: 1
Views: 976
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