9monthquit wrote:
Hey, a copy paste from my thread to share how my waves are at this point:
Well I recently just came off a week and a bit of feeling pretty normal. Unfortunately, I've dipped back into a "partial wave." It's kind of weird, I feel normal a lot of the times, but out of nowhere I just get hit with a sudden deep depression / anxiety. It might last 10 seconds or a few minutes, and sometimes maybe an hour. But then I go back to feeling normal and hopeful again and am able to work pretty well. Sometimes I feel like my brain is almost realizing it needs to keep a chemical balance now... like it goes to sleep and then suddenly realizes "oh wait, I gotta produce these chemicals now that the weed isn't there." That's maybe why I dip into a typical PAWS wave mood, and then come back out of it. Or, maybe this is just stuff that is happening to me before a big PAWS wave (I've noticed sometimes I'll feel normal after a wave, then slowly start getting PAWS symptoms like I am now, and then a week of an intense PAWS wave) Who knows, we'll see. It does seem easier though, no doubt.
Also along with the sudden severe depression / anxiety, I've been having vivid dreams and just general trouble sleeping. Not necessarily every night, but some nights I'll have even 2 different vivid dreams. Some nights I just wake up and it's hard to go back to sleep due to racing thoughts. It's weird, I didn't have sleep issues for a while and now they're suddenly back. Let's see how it goes. There is a slight amount of DP/DR too, but very rare and not intense at all. Easy to snap out of. No brain fog whatsoever (surprisingly)
All in all, I think with this update I'm currently in a place where I'm really believing I'll be PAWS free soon. I think in the next 6 months things will really improve, I think I might reach 90-95% normalcy. Right now, I'd say I'm at 85%. I think reaching 100% COMPLETELY PAWS free whatsoever will still take at least a year.
I think you are right. I suppose we will be 90-95% within the first 6 months. I can’t imagine not being 100% after another year. I mean, then the recovery process would be much slower at the end, which I have only heard the contrary about. I can’t also imagine myself being 100% after 3-6 months either. I truly expect to be recovered within 16-20 months of abstinence.Statistics: Posted by Winzu — Sun Jul 11, 2021 2:16 pm
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